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Pinball

. This could have been just another lousy day at work... Thanks for Space Pinball, I easily passed time... Hohummm... Funny that while I was messin' up with the game, I was into it so deeply I spent a few hours trying to control that damn digital pinball trying to beat the top scores. But that's not my point, I dunno if it was just weariness setting in or my subconscious working overtime, ( I was damn sleepy and drowsy, ok?!!) I began to relate with that stupid game. Pinball is a game played on a customly designed contraption in which the player operates a plunger to shoot a ball down or along a slanted surface having obstacles and targets, often equipped with flippers to keep the ball in play (got this definition from some online dictionary and I believe it's quite close...).

. You see, I began to connect life with the ball, and the life's owner, as, of course, the player/gambler himself. Life starts off with bang... chaotic... wild... uncontrolled... Like a plunger shot, it launches strong, but without definite direction. It crashes into obstacles and targets, bounces on walls, rolls anywhere. When it slows down, you still won't have the slightest idea where it'll wind up. You try to give it some direction with the flippers, yet it is just direction, still not enough to tame it's unpredictability. It's as if the ball has a mind of it's own, it follows it's own path... a trail you may be able to guess some fraction but not the whole length. Like fate itself... no matter how you control your life, there are still some odd affairs beyond your power. It's surreal destiny...

. In the whole stretch, you try to keep the ball alive. Why? To increase your scores, what else? Here, a human weakness comes to light. Dissatisfaction... Discontent... We always try to achieve big, dream big, desire big... We never know when to stop.

I wonder what's really ahead of me... I can't believe I'm doing all this wrongand I'm getting nowhere. If only I had someone to talk to, someone who'd listen to my every word and understand. I really need someone who'd look through me and see what I really am made of.

i'm beginning to hate myelf... when will i stop myself from hurting other people?

some asshole's blocking me from gaining access to my blog site... harrrrrrrrrrghhh!!!!

Hey!!! I need help here... I'm preparing my resignation and I am out of words to say... hehehe.

Just finished adding the haloscan comment thread... I hope this works...

AAAAAARGH!!! I still can't fix this template... Errors this way and that!!! I wonder where I could get a script editing and testing program in the web...
I have to get that archive function functioning!!!
Hello?!! Like, guys... I'm stuck here... can't anybody lend me a hand?!! The ampersands ARE NOT WORKING!!!!!!!!!!!

*sigh* too busy these days... and this damn computer ain't even cooperative enough!!! I wonder what the server keeper is up to, this time... at least i still have this connection, hehehe. so long, suckahs!!! mwahahahaha!!!